Trip to the Zoo

Yesterday we went to the NEW Zoo in Green Bay with Grandma. It was Family Day so everyone got in free (woohoo!). We had so much fun! But we couldn't stay very long because it was starting to rain. We saw lots of animals.


We saw lions...

and another lion...

I think this is a crane but I'm not sure...

A baby moose...

And a mommy moose!...

Nate looking at another moose...

And the monkeys!

Emmaleigh Ann

It has been 4 weeks since the passing our precious daughter Emmaleigh. She would have been 5 weeks old today. I thought I would take a moment to post some pictures of her.

At our 20 week ultrasound, our baby was diagnosed with Holoprosencephaly (HPE), which is a condition where the 2 lobes of the brain do not separate. We were told that this condition was not compatible with life. We were heartbroken. We were told that the specific type that she had was Semi-Lobar HPE, which is the middle of the three types. We were hopeful, as we had been in contact with many parents who have children with this specific type, that were doing well.

Emmaleigh was born on May 2, 2008, 8 days after her due date. She just didn't want to come into this world! She was 6 lbs 7.8 oz, and was 18.5 inches long. The next day, a CT scan came back with the diagnosis of Alobar HPE, which is the most severe type. Our hearts sank, because we knew what that meant. Most babies with this type usually do not even survive birth.

May 9, 2008, at the age of 7 days, Emmaleigh was born into heaven. She will always be our little angel.

View a slideshow of her pictures set to music at: http://www.photodex.com/sharing/viewshow.html?fl=2972707&alb=0

Trip to Grandma's House

During a recent trip to Grandma's, we had a lot of fun.



Nate enjoyed riding his tricycle. His legs are ALMOST long enough!

He also enjoyed going down the slide at Uncle Jason & Auntie Jess's house.

















He played with his cousins too, and had soo much fun with them!

I'm trying to figure out how to upload a video of them on the swings. I know how, but my file size is too large, so I have to figure out how to make it smaller...

Sick!

Today, I am sick. I think I might have the flu. Or food poisoning, I'm not sure. All I know is that it is NOT fun!

Alas, didn't do a whole lot today. I picked a bunch of junk off the living room floor, so we were able to vacuum. I also swept the kitchen floor today, woohoo! :)

Not much else happening. Matt took some new pics of Nate today, so when I get them uploaded I will post them here.

Cleaning!

I HATE cleaning! Alas, but it must be done eventually, lol. I cleaned the kitchen today. Tomorrow I must work in the living room. And eventually, I must tackle the 3rd bedroom. I suppose it must be done sooner or later. I mean, we've only been in this apartment for a year! :)

Nate was a very good boy today. He was mostly content to draw on construction paper in his high chair (with snacks, of course!), then he played in the living room. With Alvin and the Chipmucks too. :)

Boy, I am tired! Guess that's why I don't like to clean, lol!

New Pictures

I thought I would try to post a few pictures to see if it would work.

This is Nate giving us a look. He gives this look often. He is very mischievous.

Look at those gorgeous dimples!

Posing for Daddy while he's playing outside.

He just got out of the bathtub. Look at those curls!

Blah

I feel so tired. I do sleep, but it's obviously not very good sleep because I always wake up tired. I must be emotionally exhausted too.

I don't even know why I am writing this. I really don't have a whole lot to say.

I want another baby. We have to wait 3 months for the genetics test results to come back. Hopefully the cause was completely random. Otherwise, if it is genetic, then we will have a 50% chance of this happening again. And I can't do this all over again.

I know I should be thankful that I have at least one healthy child. And I am, don't get me wrong. But that fact alone does not take away the pain of losing a child, or even lessen it. I have had well-meaning people tell me, "Well at least you have a healthy son." "Well you are young, you can always have another one." Please don't tell me that. I already know that. I know they mean well, but really, it just makes me more upset.

I need to go eat a cookie.